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60 days. 100 miles

 60 days. 100 miles.  To understand why this is significant,  we (me included) have to understand how I got here in the first place.   Warning deep stuff ahead! Despite what many of you may see from me on twitch, I’m a pretty shy person who has struggled with poor self image and low self worth issues my whole life. I rarely feel worthy of peoples time and attention and I never feel I’m good enough at anything to be taken seriously.  This leads me to being very risk adverse and makes “putting myself out there” a constant battle.  On twitch,  I can turn the camera off anytime I can’t hide the pain or embarrassment I’m feeling or  if things are really bad, I can just turn the stream off and I’m safe.   But in the “real world” It doesn’t work like that so I am pretty introverted. About 11 years ago, I decided to take a risk and move across the country to beautiful San Diego, California.  I needed a change and I didn’t want to get stuck in sm...